Don’t Neglect the Tears of Christ

It was a Thursday afternoon and I had just driven through a snowstorm to see my friends in Fairbanks before leaving the state of Alaska.  During lunch with a friend, I was asked how my spiritual life was doing.  My friend was aware of what I had gone through this past Summer and I answered her honestly.  I told her it flatlined.  Her response was one of a true friend, one that lacked judgment.  Something we need more of in our church culture today.  I am not here to point any fingers or have any sort of angry rant, nothing like that… BUT, I am here to discuss the expectations I have observed over these past few months.  Most of what I have written below was on my mind while I prepared mentally for my throat surgery. Continue reading

I am Battling the Stigmas

Battling stigmas around mental health was the biggest thing next to my pride that kept me from getting the help I truly needed.  It took a true breaking point for me to put all of these fears and stigmas aside in order for me to submit myself to the Reading Hospital on June 16th, 2019.

Stigma: a mark of disgrace associated with a particular circumstance, quality, or person. (Google definition)

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Passed Out While Holding an Oxygen Mask.

Hey there,

You are an awesome person and it is lovely to meet you. Thanks for following along in my life’s journey. The next couple of blogs will be a series based off of “I am” or “I have” statements. 2019 has been a very challenging year for me in many aspects of my life. From my careers (youth minister and technology assistant) to my personal mental and physical health, a lot of it has taken quite a toll on me. This blog is going to be an introduction as to what is to come for the month of August. For now, I am starting to rack up the bills.

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An Unmovable Barge in Stormy Seas

For anyone just tuning in to this blog, I am a youth minister in the Copper River Valley. It is important to know that my faith is in Christ for what I am about to share. I also believe there are spiritual forces at work. Both those that are helping us, and those that are against us (specifically as followers of Christ). There are often times when we as Christians must experience and fight through spiritual warfare. It is a topic I have often taken the opportunity to teach about.(Ephesians 6:10-19). Recently, I preached on this topic at my church, Tazlina Fellowship, here in the valley. Continue reading

Opposition is Opportunity (part 1)

Take a moment and check out this awesome blog from my older sister. Jessica McCray is an amazing mother of 4. She and her husband live in NY. Jess is also on the pastoral staff at a Vineyard Church near Syracuse.



I love trees. I  have loved to retreat to the woods for as long as I can remember. Trees take a  stoic stance that is a striking contrast to any season. I admire all trees but the birch tree is my favorite. There are unique black and white markings on the tall towering clustered trunks. I am captivated by the thin papery bark as it unfurls like parchment from a time long gone by. The lemon-lime melded color on it’s delicate leaves sway playfully with barely a breeze and camouflage our yellow finch visitors. When I was younger I loved to climb the arched trunks and swing on the bendable branches. Now, their silvery silhouette is one of my favorite winter views during our fierce Central New York winters.

      Birch trees  are a comforting view and part of my very first memories and moments of moving to New York. I…

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Is that a Turning Point in my Life or the Steroids Talking….?


I was battling different sicknesses and allergic reactions to multiple antibiotics over a five-week period. During my last checkup, I was happy to hear that the only symptoms remaining are due to allergy season kicking in. That said, during the final week of battling sicknesses, I was put on steroids to help fight off bronchitis. My lungs had become tired and inflamed from all the mucus it was fighting off in the weeks prior. I have been on similar doses of steroids for Tinnitus (once this past fall, and once when I first moved here). I knew it could impact my sleeping schedule but what I did not know was that it could make me more irritable. The pharmacist warned me about both side effects and for the latter said, “maybe no one will notice.” Ha! Well played…

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